Miserable

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Happy Birthday to me *sila baca dengan nada tak bersemangat*

I’m 21 now.

I’m no longer a teenager.

I’m wondering why’d some people are eager to reach their 21^st?

Well, there's nothing else to say.
I just hope that things will goes well for me.

I hope I can be strong enough to face the challenges in life.

This year, it’s not as joyful or wonderful as the previous years.

I’m so not in high spirits.

In fact, I don’t feel like celebrating another year that has passed by.

What a gloomy birthday.

Shoot!

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

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Tadi pegi photshoot bersama Fahmi/Pami/Adeq gemok gue.

Kitorang pegi kat tepi pantai sbb Pami nak shoot matahari terbenam or omputeh cakap 'sunset'.
So, here's the result...

Enjoy some of the picture!!

edited version :)

Kenapa ye?

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

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Honestly, aku rasa hidup makin lama makin tak best, makin empty walaupun pada dasarnya aku dikelilingi orang. Kenapa ye? Maybe ini la yg orang kata quarter-life crisis bila kita manjangkau umur 20-an. Or maybe I'm growing old before time matured. Atau mungkin ini bahana perbuatan sendiri. Entah la aku sendiri takde jawapan pada pertanyaan ni. Yang pasti aku rasa rindu kat kawan-kawan aku. Tak kira la kawan KKB dulu or kawan INTEC.

I'm longing to see, cry and fall down laughing with you guys.

Entry Khas

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Happy birthday Onah!

Kau dah tuaaaa!

* Kau patut rasa terharu aku post satu entry khas utk wish birthday kau :)

Aku Pulang!

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

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Oh bestnye feeling berada di rumah. Mesti korang yg baca ni rasa macam nk ketuk-ketuk I kan :P Nak buat camne dah memang nature manusia bernama Sarah adalah untuk balik rumah everyweek :)

Sampai je rumah tengok sunyi semacam je, ni mesti mak abah tak balik lagi. Ni mesti si gemok tak habis kelas lagi. Pastu I pun masak nasik and keluar membeli KFC sebab dah sah-sah malam ni malas nak masak kan.

Lepas beli KFC je hati terdetik nak stop by kat kedai jual-jual tudung jap. Pastu tangkap leleh kat satu shawl ni. Mak aih, material lembut gile, memang bukan taste I la kan nk pakai yg lembik-lembik ni nanti kepala nampak macam sotong bulat. Tapi disebabkan print dan corak dia cantik menarik kau memang da bomb uh uhhhh, so I pun beli lah.

Mak sampai rumah pas Maghrib. Dapat lah lepas rindu kat buah hati pengarang jantung I yang berbulu putih tu. Mak cakap mak baru je mandikan Teh semalam. Aisey, wangi nye badan sayang! Tam as usual kene tambat kt belakang. Tula sape suh nakal sangat nak lari dari rumah lah, kencing merata lah.

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Malam ni tido dengan senyuman :)

Bebas

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Betapa I rasa macam nak balik ke zaman budak2 dulu.
Where I can do whatever shit I want.
Free from any responsibilities.
With nothing to worry about.
Where next to my family, my friends means so much for me...
and I didn't feel fucking betrayed by people around me.

Kempunan No More

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

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Tadi lepas keciwa tak dapat pergi pasar malam pada waktu petang, I pun ambik keputusan untuk tidur dengan tekun dan sabarnya menunggu hujan berhenti.

And finally tepat jam 7:25pm, hujan pun berhenti dan I dah rasa macam nak bersorak riang gembira versi Puteri Islam.

Akhirnya hajat nak makan Yong Tau Foo terkabul :)

Browsing

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Semasa entry ini ditaip, I tgh browse picture kawan-kawan particularly yang kat overseas. I mmg suka tgk gamba2 diorg kat sana. Jangan salah paham, I'm not a stalker ok, I just nak keep tract n update diri pasal diorang :) :) Ohoh rasa rindu kat korang. Taktau la korang rindu ke tak kat aku, tah-tah tak pun. Huhu~

Honestly ada tersirat sedikit perasaan jeles dan sedih pada diri sendiri bila tengok diorang cambest je belajar kat sana. Yelah, mesti lah best dapat collect new experiences kat tempat orang, then dapat tour Europe, dapat experience 4 seasons lagi kan. Memang once in a lifetime chance la bagi mereka-mereka yang tak kaya raya macam I ni tapi nak buat macam mana dah takde rezeki. Tula sape suruh blaja main-main. Asik ingat nak balik rumah je weekend.

Cakap pasal browsing fbook, I rasa sekarang ni everyone pun macam dah addicted to it. Sehari tak bukak FB dah macam tak keruan (I pun maybe termasuk dalam golongan ni tapi setakat sehari tak online I survive la lagi)

Ok la guruh pun dah berdentum-dentum saja nk bagi warning suruh off laptop. Niat nak pergi pasar malam macam tak kan tercapai je sebab dah nak hujan ni. Nak drive masa hujan memang lah no problem tapi kalau pegi pasar malam dah sah-sah la akan basah kuyup diri ini bersama dengan makanan nye sekali. Oh keciwa lah. Yong tau foo~

** counting for that day to come: 5 days lagi!! **

Life is colourful…

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Life is colourful…

So it's our job make it wonderful.

But if u happens to be colourblind like me, I guess it's better to just go with the flow.

Learning to sketch

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Oh oh oh before I start, masuk ni dah kali ke berapa tah I buat, delete and buat blog and delete lagi blog I tu. Mesti korang fikir, ape kejadahnye la kan dah buat but then delete pulak. OK. Reason I delete my previous blog sebab I dah janji to myself taknak sedih-sedih or emo lagi pasal perkara yg lepas. Yelah, konon nye let bygone be bygone gitu la. Bak kata seseorang – sketch the future. Tapi malangnye I'm not a good artist, I'm sucks at drawings. So hell la nak sketch future ke ape.

Ok sekarang ni I nak cakap I dah buang jauh-jauh kesedihan yg lepas-lepas tu. Tapi tipu la if I said that I totally dah move on or get over it. Let's just say yang I like to take it slow tho it's painful. Ceh gaya macam putus cinta je padahal putus kawan. Oh ok chop chop, I think it's ok to TALK about this as long as I don't get carried away or emotional sedeh tak tentu hala kan? Kan? Kan?

Ok baik I cerita pasal life I. Now I dah masuk 3^rd semester kat sini. So kira I dah hampir boleh adapt to lifestyle here, I kata almost ok…almost. Tapi honestly life isn't good here and most probably will never be. Tsk, tsk. Ish, belum ape-ape dah jadi pessimist. Oh masa Nursery Rhymes haritu I jadi emcee...again. But this time kes bagitau last minute pastu cam demi tolong kawan. Kiranya masuk ni dah 2 kali I jadi emcee utk event yang menggunakan Bahasa Inggeris. Ingat I suka ke? Tak langsung. Rimas, leceh tapi takpe la, dah lepas and niat I mmg nak tolong kawan. Cakap pasal BI, I rasa I nak ubah selera. Kalau before this entry I kat blog 80% adalah dalam BI tapi untuk blog baru ni I rasa nak kurangkan kepada 40-50% je. Bukan apa, I know bila tulis in English memang boleh sharpen my writing skills tapi tah tiba-tiba rasa nak makeover seluruh hidup I. Bukan la sampai nak buang segala kebiasaan, tapi tah la maybe a bit changes can help me go a long way.

Tahun baru ni I takde la nak beriye buat 'New Year Resolution' punya list la kejadah. Azam I tahun ni simple je. I just want to be a better daughter to my parents, a better sister to my sibs, better Acik to all my nieces and nephews, a better friend to those who befriend with me, a better student and most importantly a better hamba Allah – InshaAllah.

Actually there's lotsa stuff I nak share but the clock is ticking and maybe I'll continue some other day in another entry. Till then, see ya~

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