Bawang punya kulit lagi tebal

Hari ini kesabaran aku tercabar lagi.

Well this isn't the first time it happens.

Dah banyak kali, in fact boleh kata almost everyday ada aje yang menyakitkan hati.

I think I'm about to lose my patient.

Tahap kesabaran aku bukan senipis kulit bawang, tapi boleh diibaratkan senipis sel.

Truthfully said, I hate it when I'm mad.

I don't enjoy myself when I'm in furious state as it will be full of absurd and the F word.

So I'm fucking sure that none of you will like me either.

Hence I always try my very best to avoid the circumstances that may result in me being annoyed, irritated and angry.

But today, THAT someone is deliberately messing up with me.

 

Kenapa kenangan itu masih menghantui aku?

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

I've been thinking a lot lately that I've found myself constantly migrant to the other planet.

The worst thing is that I'm drifting away mostly during boring classes.

I found it hard for me to catch up the lesson this semester.

I found it difficult to stand on the solid ground this time around.

I found it tough for me to hold myself together.

And I am a bit lonely every now and then.

Once a while, my mind cruelly raced back to the time when I was happy with just being me.

To the time when there's nothing really bothers me.

The time when I have you with me.

I'm such a selfish and ignorant if I say that I want to go back to that time.

It's not just a memory that I should treasure and cherish.

It's also a lesson that I know by my heart that I shouldn't repeat it by any means.

The stage in my life which I never want to go over again.

Ya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, lindungilah hamba-Mu ini dari segala kejahatan dan kemaksiatan di dunia ini. Tabahkanlah hati hamba-Mu ini dalam perjuangannya memperbaiki segala kesilapan dan kesalahan. Ya Allah, bimbinglah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini dalam mencari keredhaan-Mu

Manusia hipokrit

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Hey people. I know every now and then mesti ada entry pasal manusia hipokrit.

Dan bila I'm not in the good mood/angry, I'd prefer to write in English to reduce the use of vulgar language, cursing and swearing.

Maybe some people said I'm too judgmental in this situation, but the thing is I don't see the rationale behind his attitude.

Ok I might not be the actress in this story but I've been in the damn same situation last year. And I know exactly how it feels.

And bluntly speaking, I'm a bit emotional when I see my friends faced the same thing that I've been through.

As usual I'm not going to waste my time repeating the same story here.

Ok, to make things easier, the moral that I've learned is :

1--- Jangan ingat orang yang rajin pergi surau ni baik sangat. I'm not saying that all of 'em is rotten eggs, maybe just a few but that few rotten eggs is more than enough to stench my perceptions. No offence.

2--- Jangan nak sound-sound orang about couple or pergaulan as if engkau tu angel sebab kau sendiri pun ada terselit nafsu untuk berbuat begitu.

3--- Mind your own business la bro! Don't bother about other people's properties.

4--- Jangan main-main pasal mak bapak. Kalau ada teringin nak rasa gaduh boleh la try.

Sorry gua emo sikit lately ni. Maklum la datang bulan purnama. Ahaks :P