Doubtful

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

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There's a time when I'm not so sure why I'm here.

Not sure of what I'm doing or what I'm supposed to do.

Not sure of my feeling.

Not sure of my emotions.

Not sure who to trust with my secret.

And I kept wondering who my friends are anyway?

And where are they?

Do I have one?

Everything is so uncertain, vague and unclear.

I've lost my sense.

My mind is numb right now.

I just wish I could freeze everything.

Or maybe I'll just freeze me.

Cuz everything seems to be in order except me.

So perhaps I'm the problem.

For the first time in my 21 years of living and breathing, I hate being me.